Living from the Heart (Weeks One & Two)

On my birthday I decided that it was time to make changes in my life. I wrote a goal list and now I am working towards accomplishing these goals. I want to share my journey with you in hopes that it will inspire you, too, to take the plunge into living the life you have always wanted.

I believe wholeheartedly in the law of attraction because as I learn more and more about it, I can see clearly how I have manifested everything that has come to me  – both good and bad. What I have been struggling with over the past few years is the “bad” that I manifested. How can I avoid manifesting things that are seemingly so disasterous?

There are two ways to look at this. First, is that I manifested bad things and I need to find a way to stop doing so. The second is that what I manifested was exactly what I needed in order to get out of a situation I was stuck in. Basically, my desire to move forward was greater than the fear that was holding me back. I choose to believe this way of looking at my past. I have to believe that there are no mistakes because my two biggest so-called mistakes resulted in my two beautiful children. Can I ever look at them and say they were a mistake? No. Do I believe they could have come to me in any other way than they did? No.

So, manifesting bad things has to be false. Now, if only I could truly believe that. Maybe it is that I want to believe in the bad so I can have an excuse to stay stuck because moving forward into the unknown is so uncomfortable. If there is one thing I do know as truth, it is that when there are lessons to be learned, the same situation repeats itself until those lessons are learned, oftentimes with more urgency/severity.

I would love to say that I have set my fear aside and am jumping fearlessly into a new and improved existence, but I would be lying. Instead I am taking some small steps and some big steps towards creating the life I want to live. There will be failures, there will be successes, but what I am hoping for this time around is that I won’t let either of them get in the way of my growth and progression towards the life I envision for myself.

Steps I have taken: 

  • SMALL STEP ONE: I bought Louise Hay’s Morning and Evening Meditations iPhone Application . I listen to these affirmations each morning and night and they are having a profound effect on how I view the world around me – especially in the morning. I am not saying it is all rosy, but things I need to work on are clearer now than they have ever been. (Don’t have an iPhone, you can buy the CD)
  • SMALL STEP TWO: I got out my copy of Louise Hay’s Heal Your Body A-Z and wrote down the explanations for each of my ailments and its corresponding affirmation from her book. I was astounded that each of my ailments had a very similar underlying belief and yet there was not one underlying belief that surprised me.  
  • SMALL STEP THREE: I looked up alternative ways to exercise. My cable company has Fitness TV on demand. I am in extreme pain quite often, but I found a Walk at Home workout that seems very manageable. Now I will incorporate it into my daily regimen. 
  • BIG STEP ONE: I have made the decision to apply to transfer to a new MFA program that will provide me with the experiences and education I need to guide me into the next phase of my life. This step is one filled with fear. It requires me to step outside of my comfort zone. It is a highly acclaimed writing program and I am experiencing daily feelings of anxiety that come from the belief that I am inadequate as a writer and don’t deserve such a program. This is what changing my life is all about though – taking risks! I am afraid of rejection and what that will say about me, but choosing to take such a big step is opening up so many things about myself that I need to work on – especially the little voice that constantly chants that I am not good enough, not good enough, not good enough. 

What am I reading now to help support me on this journey?  Infinite Possibilities by Mike Dooley

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6 responses

  1. Small steps combine to become big steps all unawares. Like the Disney song says, “Put one foot in front of the other, and soon you’ll be walking out the door.”

    Take my woprd for it, the little steps are as powerful as the great leaps we sometimes take.

    Hugs,
    GwenGuin

  2. Go for it Sarah! I truly believe that life keeps throwing the same lessons at us until we ‘get it’. Learn your lessons and move on. I also believe that everything happens for a reason. We may not know what that reason is at the time, but often on reflection, and from a distance, it becomes clear. I wish you every success with your writing project. You CAN do it.
    Hugs, Sue 🙂

  3. Oh I love that you are looking at the lessons you have learned and seeking out new ones…you have summed up so much of how I feel about my life at the moment…I am realizing that I want and need to make some changes…have made some already but some are going to be more difficult…dealing with the toxic people in my world and so on. I love the steps you are taking and find this all so inspirational! Btw, I have a couple of GREAT exercise dvd’s for people with physical limitations and/or pain. If you are interested, I will look up the actual titles of them when I get home!

  4. I hope you do manage to change your life in the ways you envisage. Like you I’m working with affirmations and the law of attraction but have had to face the reality that I have to change where I live as soon as possible – this place is not safe anymore – so I’m going to have to settle for little change to a better area of the same town where (hopefully) I will get well enough to manifest major changes in my life.

  5. Small steps – the most important steps, so far in my personal experience. I admire your constancy and your determination for movement – lots of wings of support and encouragement surround you.

  6. You are on the right track. Every step, no matter how small, moves you in the right direction. I’m proud of you.

    Vi

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