I thought I would be staying by the Hearth, stitching away when up comes another journey. Tarot ? – ooh ok, why not pull a card and see what it says.
I am using Motherpeace, cards I have had for more than 20 years now. Discs in other decks are often referred to as coins or pentacles, they are of the earth. This shows some seeds I have planted have taken root and produced fruit. The pregnant figure, however, all too obviously signifies a waiting time, gestation, a literal pregnant pause perhaps.
Time to stop for a while. I sigh, thinking, ‘no change there then’. Over the past year or so my physical self, including mobility has become restricted. At first I thought, ‘ok, well I have plenty of interests that I pursue and can continue with by the hearth, in my home’. It has not been until it has really, and I mean, really sunk in, what an impact this has had on my life. It is one thing to choose to be at home arting, creating, reading, socialising, etc., it is quite another to have it foisted upon you. The lack of choice at times has been the hardest to swallow. My condition fluctuates, I am lucky in that and I sincerely count my blessings. Things change – trite, yes – true?, indeed.
I am aware that mentally there has been a recent shift for me – it is not always constant, not a lot is. Essentially I think I came to the conclusion that I do have choices still – I can choose to be a victim of circumstance and sit at home feeling sorry for myself, or I can change my mindset deliberately and choose to take control. This card, which at first seemed to be the universe having a chuckle at my expense, actually is telling me all is well, look at the fruits around you, look to what you have already achieved, look to the fact that there is more to come, much more – there is not a wasted, wreck of a human sitting amongst the melons – there is a fecund, beautifully rounded woman who is merely resting there, waiting to give birth to another creation.
At the end of my last blog posting, I said I felt stuck, somewhat at a loss in terms of direction re my current project . Again, a timely intervention reminding that to pause gives me the opportunity to reflect, perhaps make changes, think differently, change my mind completely, whatever, so that I can move forward again.
Sevens, apparently, are about taking control. Having control does not necessarily mean being active, I feel this one is showing me it is ok to let go, acknowledging that I have planted these new seeds, the roots are establishing themselves, but it is not yet time for the shoots to show nor for them to flower. Time to step back and let nature take Her course. A pause is a pause is a pause … a pregnant pause is full of possibilities.